sometimes i have the feeling that shes avoiding me
you know, i complain about my friends a lot
but maybe its me who is the shitty friend.
i think you dont matter
i act as if you dont care
but i need to realise that just because youre ot everything that i pictured a friend like... it doesnt mean that youre not a bad friend.
i want someone exactly like your best friend.
the one that drops everything for you
even if they have a boy/girlfriend
the one who lends a shoulder for you to lean on
who shares their roof because youre sick of home
you know?
but for some reason, i cant have someone like that.
or maybe i can but im just to stubborn to admit im not as bad off as i think i am.
just because i want to fit in to everywhere i cant.
i have somewhere i belong, but i wont accept it.
my mind is in one place, but it wants to be somewhere else.
and its impossible to move.
why cant i just accept that im fine?
x♥x
