[16:23] xxKIRSTxx.....dnt drink n drive u mite hit a bump n spill ur drink:
i got demoted to numba 5... theres anotha chic thats 4 lmfao
[16:21] tara,, the romance is over, baby.:
lol top friends dont really mean anything tho
[16:23] xxKIRSTxx.....dnt drink n drive u mite hit a bump n spill ur drink:
lins sent bak "oh well he dsnt knw wat hes missin out on" cos i sent her the same msg as u!
[16:24] xxKIRSTxx.....dnt drink n drive u mite hit a bump n spill ur drink:
i find it funny cos lins n me r like ah well hes found smone else n ur like it dsnt mean anythin its fucken hillarious lol
[16:24] tara,, the romance is over, baby.:
hmm i have a different mindset
[16:25] xxKIRSTxx.....dnt drink n drive u mite hit a bump n spill ur drink:
lol everyone has dif mindsets lol
[16:26] tara,, the romance is over, baby.:
while you and lins may think, for example, your position on someones top friends means something, i think wth, what does top friend on myspace prove?
of course everyone thinks differently.
but sometimes i wonder: am i telling people my thoughts, or what i want them to hear?
im trying to fit in with these two, lins and kirstie. the thing is, they ahve ormed such a tight bond, i dont see why i keep trying to fit in with them. they look at things differently to me. they have a different sense of humour. they talk differently. they dont match the way i think.
sometimes opposites attract. but this isnt opposites, this is just...differences.
i dont know why i keep trying to find my way to them, try and be their best friend, when its so blatenly obvious that im second best to them.
stef on the other hand...she is my best friend. why wont i be her best friend too? when kirstie and lindsey gave me shit for having a crush on matty, when i have made it very clear that i dont, stef was the one whispering in my ear
"dont listen to thim. i know you, i know you cant take critisism like this. i get shit like this all the time, i ignore it, i deal with it. but i know you, so dont take it to heart. dont listen. you and i know how it is, just dont worry."
she backs me up on the smallest of matters.
but why am i never there for her?
