i still cannot figure out how this world works.
the more i think about it, the more confused i become.
being me dosnt work, and im not about to pretend to be what im not.
last weekend was the best. you have no idea. the castle on friday night. dancing, jumping, yelling, singing, talking, laughing. i wasnt myself after friday. i was out of my shell, i was confident, i was enjoying every minute of it. i had the coourage to at like an idiot and enjoy myself. i had the courage to talk to people i had never met.
afterwards, phil gave me the best hug i had ever had. i then waited outside the castle to be picked up. i saw jimmy inside so called him to come ou. he gave me a hug. the guy he was with was bagging us, and suddenly i had a burst of wit that put him back inside his box. then phil came and saw us. i smiled, 'not you again'. before i knew it, all of PPS were there. we talked for a good 40 mins. it was awesome. "ill make you feel like youre 18 again"...lol.
saturday was the demo. got to the house at 1:30. i met matty. we went to the demo, we gave out hats, i bought m&ms for $8, lins won the demo, we went back to her house. me, lins, kirst, matty and the rest had drinks. "matty, stop flirting with tara and give me my 10 cents" - "look over there! its marc!". kirst was off her face ofcourse. they were surprised at how quickly i downed drinks, but im a "smart drinker". we all went to bed at 5am. i woke up at 7. kirst hadnt slept at all. me and kirst went into the lounge. we were all up by 10. i was shivering and kirst and matty just laughed as they were in warm blankets. then matty gave me his sleeping bag to share. we stayed there til 2. then it was time to go home.
i loved every minute of that weekend, from friday night til sunday arvo.
