im in a talkative moos at the moment.
okay so i feel really left behind right now
for more reasons then one
and its beginning to get to me again.
ive surprised myself with how optimistic ive been lately
but ive been told that suring this week, its all going to wear off
damn hey?
i know it gets tiring how no matter where you turn, there is always someone complaining about how bad their life is.
and then the next person is saying
"you could have it worse *enter worse story here*"
so its almost as if the world is now fighting over who is more depressed
which is really quite stupid.
so i guess i dont really have that much to complain about.
yet i still do it because its the easy thing to do.
the world is collapsing right in front of us yet people still live in denial.
all i can see is a bleek, gloomy future
which i am actually quite scared of.
no, im not just talking about global warming or whatever else.
its just, i cant understand the human race.
at all.
humans are deceptive, they even fooled time into letting this world last longer than it should have
because really, humans are stupid creatures who destroyed this world a long time ago
im surprised it took this long for the world to start crumbling
and im really not looking forward to seeing how the future will pan out.
to get this off my mind
id think id like to point out the simple fact
that i absolutely hate it when people just forget im here.
start a conversation with me then decide they have better things to do
and just leave me as if the conversation was never started
not even sharing a goodbye or even recognising the fact that they will be ignoring me for the next few days.
its really getting on my nerves.
yet i chose not to say anything because im that type of person
i act as if nothing happens, and youll probably never even know that youre doing this to me.
but of course, i will get over it.
i think im going to go to bed with a million thoughts swirling in my mind
first time in a while really
and i will never ever be able to shake off this very real feeling i get
that you can all read my mind.
i have a serious case of paranoia,
for i truely believe there is always someone
looking through my mind
for i even think
"stop reading my mind"
that is a secret i could never share with anyone
for obvious reasons, really.
