i dont know how much longer i can handle this.
everything is getting to me.
no matter how small or insignificant.
and do you know what else?
i cant tell anyone.
not because i have no one to tell
but because i get embarrassed about these things.
everything is only going to get worse
and im sick of people telling me otherwise.
"it gets better"
well there are people who are in their mid-30s still being told that
so what happens when it doesnt get better?
please, i need someone who wont have a problem
with sitting next to me
and listening to every thought on my mind...
why is it those people are either hard to come by
or by the time you find them
they have someone else to care for
and barely glance your way at all?
im sick of wondering.
im sick of waiting.
im sick of thinking.
im sick of all of this.
and i dont think i can handle no one knowing all this.
im sick of holding it all in.
stop tellingme your problems
yes, i do care
but i think id like someone to help ME for a change.
i cant put everyone first
when im stuck in times like this.
