why does everything have to change?
dont get me wrong. some parts of me i wish to change.
but i miss all those 5am nights.
i miss laughing about the stupid things.
i miss the way you would make me cry, but not because you hurt me, because you helped me open up.
i miss how you trusted me with everything.
how you would say things without thinking of whether i would care or not.
now what replaces is ever long silences.
were never online anymore.
and when we are, we never talk.
i know youve moved on.
i dont want to believe that youve grown, and "gotten over" me.
i want everything back to how it was a few weeks ago, a few months ago.
theres two people that ive been talking about in here recently.
but i have failed to mention theres a third.
she always listens.
she always shares everything with me.
she makes me feel loved and wanted.
she cares. she asks. she knows when somethings wrong.
and i think ive decided to let her read these. maybe.
and if you are reading this... i can trust you not to tell anyone, right?
