Monday, June 30, 2008

do all you can to keep me blind.

okay, lets get this straight.
to the few people who i told about this blog
none of the recent blogs have been about you.
they have been about others
who treat me, pretty much, like crap.
even if it sounds like it is refering to you
it isnt.

the getaway plan, goodnight nurse and closure in moscow on saturday.
wow, i dont know if i could get much more excited.

these massive pauses seem somehow familiar.
i just find it a little crazy how the only time
people actually continue to have a conversation with me
is when they start the conversation tthemselves.
if i am the one who starts it
the conversation doesnt get past the 'how are you's.
therefore, i am no longer starting conversations.
in person. on the internet. anywhere.
i think im just getting over being forgotten,
ignored or whatever it is you all do to me.

but i guess im over reacting.
btw, im sick of you venting on me
and not giving a shit about everyone else around you.
grow a fucking brain
stop attention seeking.

before i end this, i want to apologise for some posts i made in the past.
i mean, wayy back in the past.
its called being naive, stupid and inexperienced.
and i over react/analise
im sure that didnt help.